I haven’t written a blog post in quite some time and I wanted to come tell you why. If you follow my Facebook or Instagram page, you’ll know my health hasn’t being doing well. In the last 9 months, I’ve been cut into five different times and admitted to the hospital more times than I can even count.
But I’m still here.
In April 2020, I have an occipitocervical fusion (skull-C3), but as I recovered, many of my symptoms got worse. I never really got better. My neurosurgeon had thought that my symptoms were primarily attributed to craniocervical instability, but when we treated the CCI and nothing changed, he started looking in other directions.
On October 26, 2020, I had a tethered cord release surgery. When I went into that surgery, I hadn’t been able to walk for 15 months. My left leg had been paralyzed for 465 days. But when I woke up, I could move my leg! I could wiggle my toes. Tears of joy flowed from eyes.
My recovery from the tethered cord release surgery was tough. I came dangerously close to losing my life, on my birthday (November 7). And one doctor even told me that if I hadn’t come in on my birthday, I wouldn’t have had another one. I was dying from a massive staph infection and I didn’t even realize it.
The staph infection really slowed my recovery a lot, but I persisted and the second week of December, I got my PICC line removed and was able to return to outpatient physical therapy.
The day after Christmas, I started walking on my own – unassisted. No cane, no crutches, no walker…just my own two legs. And I can’t even begin to explain what that joy felt like. I started walking and I didn’t look back. On January 9th, I walked 1.85 miles ALL. BY. MY. SELF. Every step was a testament to how much I’d pushed through to get to this point.
But on January 10th, I turned my head and something in my neck popped. After the pop, my face went numb, my arm went numb. I’m not going to lie, I was scared. The next day, I went to my local emergency room. They admitted me overnight to keep an eye on my symptoms and get a lot of additional imaging. Turns out, that pop caused a loosening of the screws in my skull-C3 fusion.
My head was falling off. Again.
The neurosurgeon on-call put me back in a c-collar and told me to stay in it until I could see my doctor. Putting the collar on did help to alleviate the intensity of my symptoms. So much so that I couldn’t tolerate being out of it for more than 10-15 minutes.
Over the course of the week, the weakness and numbness and tingling and pain in the left side of my body got continually worse. By Friday, I couldn’t walk normally anymore. I was having foot drop in my left foot. My whole left side felt weak.
I saw my neurosurgeon on Friday, January 15th and he confirmed my fear that I was going to need another surgery. There were a total of three loose screws; one in the skull and one in both C2 and C3, both on the right side. Also, C3-C4 was herniated and had caused narrowing of the spinal canal.
I broke down in my surgeon’s office. I told him how scared I was and that I couldn’t go back to not being able to walk. He reassured me, that although this did need to be fixed urgently, it was fixable. So surgery was set for Monday, January 18th and I went home to enjoy the weekend with my children.
Surgery went smoothly. No hiccups. I spent a few days in the hospital for pain control, but by Thursday, January 21st, I was back at home. On January 23rd, I walked half a mile, around my neighborhood. I sat down and I cried with joy. I had lost the ability to walk for so long and I will never take it for granted again.
By the evening in January 23rd, I had begun having an increasing amount of pain and my incision was looking very res and swollen. After the staph infection I had after the tethered cord release, I wasn’t taking any chances. I contacted the on-call neurosurgeon, sent them some pictures of what it looked like, and they e-scribed some antibiotics.
But the antibiotics didn’t make any difference. That night, the incision started draining a lot. Like, an excessive amount. By Sunday night, I was back in the ER, being admitted, with the plan of going back to the OR the next morning. I had developed a fairly large seroma (a collection of fluid, like an abscess, but without an infection).
Monday, January 25th, I went back into surgery. They cleaned out the wound and placed a drain. There was no apparent infection, but they also sent off cultures of the wound to make sure. Imagine the surprise when the cultures came back positive for pseudomonas. They were pretty aggressive with the IV antibiotics and then discharged me on a course of oral antibiotics.
So I’m back home now. I’m recovering. I’m healing. But, man…..has it been a wild ride. I’m hoping that my body will keep it together, now, for at least a little while. And I’m hoping that it won’t be another five months before I write another blog post. But life with chronic illness is forever unpredictable. I have no clue what’s going to happen next, just that I’m going to push my way through the same way I always do.
I’m burnt out. But giving up isn’t an option.